I’m very hungy I need my ******* lunch now!!!
God, my aunt is never in home and, many times (always, dam’n!) I’ve to cook my own food but, today there’s nothing to cook. There’s nothing in the fridge, even a snack… Goood!! I’m fucking hungry!!! shiit!! I hate this.
I’ll going to eat myself if I don’t it in 15 minutes.

Shed a tear ’cause I’m missing you
But I’m still alright to smile
Girl, I think about you every day now
‘Was a time when I wasn’t sure
But you set my mind at ease
There is no doubt you’re in my heart now…
(Guns N’ Roses – Patience)

Dedicated to my best friend, I love u dear

These holydays have been very solitary. Ooh today I’d gone to buy some clothes and when I was returning to my home and suddenly began to rain. I ran to my flat and when I was in I realized that nobody was in the reception, all was empty and lonely. Now I am in my bedroom writing this to share my feelings with you.

I think I’m go to watch the rain falling in my window until somebody calls me.
Goodbye dear.

(I tought that is the name of a song, isn’t it?)
The last night was specially too cold, that night of saturday (I love it!) is veeeeery cold. I was writing a mail for a classmate and I want to go to bed but it was too cooold, looks like it was frozen and then, when I put my pajamas (yeah, you know that sometimes I sleep in underwear daahahaha!!) I felt the cold as ice in my body and ran to my bed but it was too cold!!. I like the winter, but this is very extreme I hate it!! (btw I hate julieta venegas too…. fuckin’ MTV, it sucks tooooo hard, I will spit in her fucking ugly face if she were in front of me) daaah I’ll end hate all the world wjahahkaha.

Care me, my sweet teddy bear! muack *o*
I’m going to listen ride the lighting entire before I doze off. (yeph I love metallica)
Sweet dream babys (are made of this loooool)

When do you realize that you loves your best friend, the one who ever was with you when you have a problem?
When do you accept that is not only friendship that you feel?

I’m so confused, my best friend of all my life today was looking me a bit strange, a bit hot maybe.
God, I was so ashamed. She is beauty, and I love her so much but… I don’t know what I’m feeling.
Yeph, I’m a schoolgirl a bit strange , and I know that this is a complicated stage of any teenager hahaha.

But this evening happened something very… weird… or very “lesbic” hahaha. Ok ok, I am putting a bit of humor in my life.
After the normal classes in my school were finished, me and my friend were in the music room to learn some songs.
As usual, the teacher lend us the classroom to practice. I was in the piano learning the song (I’ll not tell you the name) and my friend had the guitar harmony. She sat to my side to I can hear her better. And yeah, we play the song many times but I said her: “Can you give me a time for learn a part?” , she said yeah, of course and I began to play.

I try it many times and then I was frustrated. I close the piano I took my head with my hands and I only said: “I can’t do it”. Suddenly she hug me she said me “You can do it, I’m sure” and she smiled to me. Then she began to caress my leg and she move her hand under my skirt. In this moment I jump out of the chair, I looked to her very strange. Oh my god! I felt her hand in my underwear…. waaahh!!. Then I took my bag and ran to my home.

In my home I only could thought about she, and her hand in my underwear… in the deep of myself I liked it (Blusheeed!!!)
Holy **** I’m sick… daahaha.

I remember when I was child, and I was an innocent girl., I never played with dolls, I never had a lot of friends… and even I never meet my parents…. because they’re dead. I only have one photo with they, but I was too young, too child.

Sometimes I dream with my mom and my dad, she was beauty, like me, and my parent was very nice. They can talk to me but when I say something to they, they ignore me and suddenly I wake up. It’s so weird and sad.

I can’t remember anymore of my childhood because the seasons change, and now the weather is hot, and I’m alone. I have many teddy bears in my bed and sometimes I huge my favorite one when I go to sleep.
It’s funny, I can’t remember my childhood but I remain like a little girl.

I hate the summer because it’s hot and it remember my parents, I don’t know why.
And suddenly, the desire of write about me is vanishing…

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